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Woman, Wife, Friend, Sister, Daughter, Colleague, Teacher, Mentor, Poet, Client, Writer, Aunt, Neighbour...

Thinking about all the roles i have filled and currently fill in my life.. makes me think.. i have been one, more or all of the above at various times in my life.

In my constant introspection, i often ask myself at any given time or the whole of the time - have i truly been the very essence of compassion, of duty, of style, of beauty. Was i a symbol of selfless humanity, a standard bearer for the rights of the truly downtrodden, a very normal, yet extraordinary person whose passion transcends nationality. ..

A devoted and loyal friend, a colleague constantly reaching for perfection, someone whose heart is open and transparent. Having conducted my life with strength, dignity, humility, laughter, excellence and passion. Dedicated to justice and love. Steadfast, unwaivering in my convictions and resolve.

Well, i cant really answer my own question.. i can only hope that at the end of my life.. the answer would be yes.. thats my goal, that is what i am striving for....

THANKSGIVING

Nov 23, 2006

This was my first thanksgiving experience in the States.. i never realised what a big deal it was!

Everything is closed on the day even the restaurants, people spend their time with family and friends and everyone is very nice over the Holiday period!

Giving thanks for something is a great way to spend a day.. it reminds us to stop and look at what makes us people. Often life gets so busy that we forget about the things that matter and the people that matter.

Today life matters.. i give thanks for this year, for this experience for this life that i have been richly blessed with.

I give thanks for the many people in my life who love and care about me and whom i so deeply love and care about.

Thank you everyone... for everything!

Denver, Colorado...

After Las Vegas, i spent just over a week in the bustling city of Denver. It's a beautiful trendy little city, with alot of nightlife, trendy up marked bars, lounges and clubs.
Yet for some reason when i returned to Charlotte i felt like i had arrived back home to the safety of the cocoon that i have called home for the past 8 months, and it made me realise a few things about myself that i never really knew before... i love change, flexibility, sponteneity.. but there is a part of me that holds on to the familiar.. a part of me that longs for my hearts' "home" wheever that may be at any given time

I guess one can only do so much travel, only stay in so many hotels before the need for normal and boring and routine set in...

So with that in mind and Denver looking set to become my new home.. i am on a little inward journey to bid farewell to Charlotte... this weird little southern place that taught me a whole new perspective on the American life....

Mother...

Your love follows me

To the Deepest ocean

I believe in the hopes you inspire

The dreans you encourage

A friend, a heart so brave

With Grace and strength

Arms that stretch across the oceans

of time and space
before i was myself..

you made me...

Copywrite: Jade

I went to Las Vegas last week which was a bittersweet experience. I experienced all the lights camera action of Vegas, but also came down with food poisoning which i would not wish upon my worst enemy. Vegas is not for those who are afraid of "seeing it all" and at every turn when you think you have seen it all something else makes your jaw drop!! LOL

I also enjoyed travelling, but these days the delays, the security checks, the turbulance and not to mention the bacteria you contract seems rather a high price to pay! Nevertheless, Las Vegas is like a fantasy land, it really feels as if you have escaped the real world.

I am currently in Denver, the snow starting to fall in this pretty bustling city set between the Rocky Mountains of Colorado and today i started thinking about these 8 months that i have been here in America.

It seems like i have experienced so much, yet if you ask me beside my travel and studies - what i have been doing, its very hard to define. I have had the opportunity to search myself, get in touch with who i am, what i am and what i want from life in these 8 months of "freedom" from the rat race, the "real world" and the stress of everyday routine...

I have spoken in earlier postings about moments of elation, moments of pain, moments of reflection and moments of just being.. and today i was thinking - have i "found" myself in this time that i have had to myself to just live and do whatever it is that i wake up and feel like doing? did i need to be found?

Well i didnt write another novel, i didnt change the world or save a life, i didnt become super rich or attain any superficial goals.. but i have learned how to reach inward and withdraw my life lessons - to truly be who i am.. to wake up everyday and feel that not only do i have a purpose - that i AM the purpose that i was created for.. if that makes sense to you then we see eye to eye.

I have often spent my life wanting to hold the whole world in my heart - but for the first time i really know what my heart is made of. In the simplicity of my circumstance i found the complexity of my dreams and my goals and my ideals.

I have felt my absolute aloneness and my undeniable belonging. We all long for a "home" and to belong to a place.. i set out wanting to know truly how to become intimate to become one with myself, my people, this world.. and the beginning of that was to look inward and see who i truly am and who i was meant to become. My voice in this world, in my circle of friends back home seems to have faded.. the sounds of all the declarations of my sincerest intentions have died and drifted with the wind of time as people "forget" your voice...

Yet i know now that this experience has given to me a pause before my next great exhale - when i breathe into being the next stage of my life...

Until then, i inhale and enjoy this experience that i am ever so grateful for. My life, my now.. America and me are one this day - with this people with whom i was not born, yet find a new identity in.. i will love until the sand of this time here has run out... I am at peace and whole in this moment.