Random thoughts....
I took a quick peek at my watch as I increased my steady pace up Broadway, being careful not to slip on the ice left behind by yesterday’s snow flurries; it was 8:06am. I had my Tall non-fat Chai Latte in one hand – the same hand in which I hold my red and black Gucci handbag, swinging carelessly from side to side on the crook of my arm replicating my walking pace. My hair tied in a chignon at the centre of my head, stray strands dancing across my face, mimicking the dances of the icy Colorado wind. In the other hand, tightly clutching my Blackberry, which I fondly refer to as “my tracking device” and smile at the thought as I can feel the gentle vibrations of the phone in my hand, signifying that the office is wide awake and happily trying to get my attention!
As I crossed the robot (Traffic light), a few thoughts started racing through my mind..
My thoughts turned to desire.. it seems that the older we get, the more desires move further in the distance than when we are younger. When you are young your dreams seem fueled by naïve beliefs that if you dream it, it WILL happen.. I used to think that age brings you closer to the desired goals since you have more sense and sensibility to make it happen. I questioned whether desires really fade or whether they just change… what is it that I desire today that is the same desires I have had 10 years ago? I guess the practicality of life, bills to pay, debt to pay and things to take care of takes precedence over dreams and goals. For those who know me well, will know that I have always put my desires for a ”bigger”, intimate and fulfilling life before any practicality.. however, the course of my life became such that the realization that one can have both and don’t need to choose one or the other.. is that really true though??
I just don’t like compromise when it means possible regret. The question in mind is.. Can I still desire things even when I have to put “life’ and its unpredictability AND predictability in the foreground?
As I crossed the robot (Traffic light), a few thoughts started racing through my mind..
My thoughts turned to desire.. it seems that the older we get, the more desires move further in the distance than when we are younger. When you are young your dreams seem fueled by naïve beliefs that if you dream it, it WILL happen.. I used to think that age brings you closer to the desired goals since you have more sense and sensibility to make it happen. I questioned whether desires really fade or whether they just change… what is it that I desire today that is the same desires I have had 10 years ago? I guess the practicality of life, bills to pay, debt to pay and things to take care of takes precedence over dreams and goals. For those who know me well, will know that I have always put my desires for a ”bigger”, intimate and fulfilling life before any practicality.. however, the course of my life became such that the realization that one can have both and don’t need to choose one or the other.. is that really true though??
I just don’t like compromise when it means possible regret. The question in mind is.. Can I still desire things even when I have to put “life’ and its unpredictability AND predictability in the foreground?
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