My OMG moment

This has been a tough week (once again) only because I went to work poorly with the flu and mind absorbed in deadlines I have and the work piling on. As I went clambering along the footpath briefly observing the left over snow on the green grass, a question started to pop into my mind, have I been absent from the experience of my own life? I have always tried to maintain a healthy balance between my busy, demanding profession and my passions, hobbies and social activities…

But I feel of late as if I have been absorbed - mind and body - in my work. I don’t have a strategy, I have fire fighting, desperately attempting to shift things, to balance things to be good at my job, since its such a new industry and venture to me..

The more the thoughts convolute my mind, the more I started to realize and then relax…

Anxiety is a normal first reaction to life and the overwhelming magnitude of things there are to learn and to get done.

Then my thoughts turn to destiny. I believe vehemently and with conviction in destiny. I do not believe in predestination, however.

The difference for me is this:

Predestination speaks of a predetermined purpose wrapped up in a very specific destination. Like a specific job, or vocation or life path. And no matter the road you choose (or don’t choose), it will lead you to become or do that one thing.

Destiny is when you are destined for a purpose in life holistically, that does not encompass a specific vocation. And yes, all roads will lead you to that end because it is part of your make up – and you can choose not to follow that destiny and never get there. Sounds like a contrary to the definition of destiny but in reality it is not. Destiny is that there is a path mapped out in your make up but you still have to choose to follow it – its about being destined for greatness…being destined for leadership. You have the qualities, but it’s still your choice whether you get there and how you get there.

So on that note, my OMG moment was remembering that the reason each job I am blessed with, regardless of how different, how new, how minimal, I always seem to be challenged in the same way – steered in the same direction. And then fear sets in.. .. and today I realized, its not because I am awesome (even though i am !LOL), but because I have a destiny and the road of life steers me toward it, and when I came to this realization, I could relax and just run with it.