Pride.... and Glory.....
My weekend has been good so far, Far too short (what's new?) I stayed around Denver this weekend. Friday after work, my colleagues and I took off early to chill out at the Horse Shoe lounge, it was fun to just hang out and not think about work for a few hours. I was sick all of Saturday, so that felt like a waste of a day - I basically stayed in bed all day. I went out to have some food and that was all I really did. I cleaned up and did some personal internet surfing, working on my book etc.
Sunday, I woke up early - went out for a nice chai tea, got a bunch of errands and shopping done and then went to watch a movie...
I watched "Pride and Glory".. it was a good movie.. really good. It is quite an ironic title.. This movie was so full of intensity.. I sat on the edge of my seat. What good acting, I was blown away.
I say Ironic.. because, without giving anything about the movie away... I firmly believe there is no Glory in Pride... and this movie is a display of just that. It was good. Got me thinking again...
What pride do I have that seeks Glory... You know, last June, 12th when I walked into Quark for the first time, my life was in the process of being pieced together again after an emotional hurricane. It was a good time for me.. A time when I started seeing broken pieces being put back together again.. you know that feeling, I am sure?? everyone goes through it.. I went through living hell in my own heart as I am sure everyone who reads this blog regularly knows from earlier posts..... So I started a job I had no idea what I was doing.. but I loved it.. To this day! Yes, in the past few months, the responsibility just seems overwhelming, but I still feel as if I have found a piece of myself in my job.
How can you find yourself in your work.. isn't work just work.. a means to give you a decent life? Yes - and NO! It's such a big part of who I am, now - it is where I express so many of my talents, where I see myself challenged and my character grows. I connect and disconnect with people. It's been a fun time and a very stressful ride... Pride and Glory?
I have never just done one thing that I completely allowed to absorb me. I have worked admin jobs, management jobs, took care of grannies, fostered children, saved animals, swept streets, cleaned toilets, drove Celebrities around, filed people's crap, managed business and was a lady of leisure all at the same time at one time or another.. But at this moment.. I have decided to put all my energy for right now, into this little job that I have. It gives me the peace and the direction I want, for this stage of my life. I do alot of social and personal things, but as far as giving of myself to a cause.. this is pretty much it right now.
I take pride in what I do and I seek my own humble sense of Glory.. the irony? Both of those words have negative and positive meaning. I have pride, but how can I afford to be proud?? I have no cause to gloat or be arrogant and "proud" as it is the downfall of many a powerful person.. I seek the glory that my talent gives me because that is how life works..you want recognition and due appreciation - but how can I seek Glory and live in humility....
It is finding the balance in life. And I hope at the end of it all.. I can always live with humility and a grateful heart.
My weekend has been good so far, Far too short (what's new?) I stayed around Denver this weekend. Friday after work, my colleagues and I took off early to chill out at the Horse Shoe lounge, it was fun to just hang out and not think about work for a few hours. I was sick all of Saturday, so that felt like a waste of a day - I basically stayed in bed all day. I went out to have some food and that was all I really did. I cleaned up and did some personal internet surfing, working on my book etc.
Sunday, I woke up early - went out for a nice chai tea, got a bunch of errands and shopping done and then went to watch a movie...
I watched "Pride and Glory".. it was a good movie.. really good. It is quite an ironic title.. This movie was so full of intensity.. I sat on the edge of my seat. What good acting, I was blown away.
I say Ironic.. because, without giving anything about the movie away... I firmly believe there is no Glory in Pride... and this movie is a display of just that. It was good. Got me thinking again...
What pride do I have that seeks Glory... You know, last June, 12th when I walked into Quark for the first time, my life was in the process of being pieced together again after an emotional hurricane. It was a good time for me.. A time when I started seeing broken pieces being put back together again.. you know that feeling, I am sure?? everyone goes through it.. I went through living hell in my own heart as I am sure everyone who reads this blog regularly knows from earlier posts..... So I started a job I had no idea what I was doing.. but I loved it.. To this day! Yes, in the past few months, the responsibility just seems overwhelming, but I still feel as if I have found a piece of myself in my job.
How can you find yourself in your work.. isn't work just work.. a means to give you a decent life? Yes - and NO! It's such a big part of who I am, now - it is where I express so many of my talents, where I see myself challenged and my character grows. I connect and disconnect with people. It's been a fun time and a very stressful ride... Pride and Glory?
I have never just done one thing that I completely allowed to absorb me. I have worked admin jobs, management jobs, took care of grannies, fostered children, saved animals, swept streets, cleaned toilets, drove Celebrities around, filed people's crap, managed business and was a lady of leisure all at the same time at one time or another.. But at this moment.. I have decided to put all my energy for right now, into this little job that I have. It gives me the peace and the direction I want, for this stage of my life. I do alot of social and personal things, but as far as giving of myself to a cause.. this is pretty much it right now.
I take pride in what I do and I seek my own humble sense of Glory.. the irony? Both of those words have negative and positive meaning. I have pride, but how can I afford to be proud?? I have no cause to gloat or be arrogant and "proud" as it is the downfall of many a powerful person.. I seek the glory that my talent gives me because that is how life works..you want recognition and due appreciation - but how can I seek Glory and live in humility....
It is finding the balance in life. And I hope at the end of it all.. I can always live with humility and a grateful heart.
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