New Year....... New Beginnings...

Wow! What an end to 2008 and what a beginning of 2009..


I haven't written much because so much was happening all at once.


After Christmas, I packed up all my belongings and moved into a little studio apartment. It was a weird transition, because I moved from a fully furnished apartment that had everything from a king sized bed accompanied by a great view to the most exquisite cutlery. Moving into an unfurnished apartment and realizing I don't even have a fork or an iron haha.


Me and big turtle were very unsettled and in a fog for a few days. But I have managed to sort out my whole life and organize my apartment and it feels really good! I don't have anything except a couch right now.. but I will slowly start getting the necessities.

How funny is life?

I sat in the dark last night in my (very clean, neat and well organized) tiny studio apartment... thinking. Pondering the past.. the present and the future.


Most of my life I have been no stranger to success, wealth and the worldly luxuries that people often pursue. I thought about my house in Sandton, in South Africa, for which I am still paying every month and my precious employee Patience who works so faithfully there for me still. My garden that often gets neglected by Eric because he is so busy. The beauty salon... The cars standing in Willie's garage - not going anywhere. My boxes full of memoirs I have gathered through the years of all my travels and experiences. My boxes still laiden with probably 75 perfumes which I should have just given to someone to enjoy instead of storing them. And the list goes on...


I was telling my good friend the other day that I feel as if I am living my life backwards..

Here is the typical course of life for the average person:

• Graduate from School
• Go to college - While in college, maybe live on your own, work at starbucks type places and make ends meet. Party hard. Study hard. Graduate.
• Find a good job. Make decent money. Buy a car.
• Meet someone, fall inlove. Buy a house. Get a dog. Be successful and settled.
• Get married. Travel a bit. Have babies. Life is over (lol just kidding)

Here is the course my life has taken:

• 16 - Graduate from school. Meet someone. Fall inlove
• 17 - 20 go to college
• 20 get married. Buy cars and houses. travel.
• Successful and Settled. (no dog though).
• Move to a new country. Live in an apartment
• Find a nice job.
• Move into a smaller apartment. Kinda like a dorm room. Go back to college.
• Work a second job to make ends meet and pay for school.

So that is where I am at. Very strange the Journeys that life takes you on. But the one thing I can say with irrevocable certainty, is that my heart is at absolute peace. My soul is missing absolutely nothing. My hopes are secure in a bright and blessed future. My passions are unchanged, my convictions uncompromised, my resolve undeniable.

Here is to a new beginning of greatness.

"If any man seeks for greatness, let him forget greatness and ask for truth, and he will find both."

Here I am again at the edge of my life - and again I seek nothing but truth. I say again the same words I wrote when my blog started those 3 years ago:

I want to live with deep intimacy everyday of my life. I want nothing more than what is real and to be fully alive. Want to join me... come on in.. the journey begins here.. again......