Today I am going to volunteer at the rescue mission. I will be doing a dinner shift at 7:30pm to hand out food to the homeless and destitute in downtown.

My motivational book is in the process of editing and formatting and will then be ready for publishing / printing. I am very excited. This booklet is really just aimed to encourage people everyday to find ways to improve their lives. It is so basic, anyone can just pick it up and in a very real and practical way - just feel better and do something different.

I feel very accomplished and I feel like I am finally making a difference. It is not that I didn't make some kind of difference before. And don't get me wrong, my two years working here at Quark has taught me so much about life and taught me a lot of new skills which I will be able to use in other industries in the furture. And most of all - it has taught me alot about myself.

I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You

by Pablo Neruda
I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,

From waiting to not waiting for you

My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;

I hate you deeply, and hating you

Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you

Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume

My heart with its cruel Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who Dies,

the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,

Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

"In fire and blood"...

Such deep powerful words.... I want to live my entire life by.. passion will surely make you crazy - but is there any other way to live?

So - It has been a long time, since I wrote some useless facts about myself for you all to make fun of... so here goes:

1. I can cook - But I can't sew or build things that involve tools and instructions! (But I can change oil in a car though!)

2. I hate doing laundry - I never had to until I moved to the Western World - it sucks.

3. I love weapons and I have a Ninja Fan and a Samurai sword in my apartment. I love firearms too, but I shoot those only on the range.

4. I love dancing - SO much.. I watch MJ videos everyday and dance to it and try to perfect it.

5. I am obsessive.. (ok that is not news to anyone!)

6. I Love LURRVE Panda bears.. so much so that I want one - like for real.

7. I have no interest in flying to the moon

8. I love stalking Celebrities.. Ok stalking is a bit of a negative word LOL> I have always had the opportunity to be surrounded by and meet Celebs and I love it.. whenever anyone famous is in town, I drop everything to go speak with them. Fame fascinates me. It is one of the reasons I sit in moves 14 hours a week practically! Love movies, Hollywood and entertainment.. And YES - I will be moving there!! :)

9. Ofcourse we all know I love cars.. no shocker there! Enuff said!

10. I used to be a fashion disaster and I was since liberated.. I am so into it now. I have a strange sense of style, I love fashion and putting styles together and I love anything name brand (Except Anything Coach and Chanel bags - people who wear those irritate me!).

11. I love technology and gadgets and mostly the internet. Hallelujah that I live in the time of the Internet.. However.. I don't twitter. I think it is highly stupid!

12. There is a part of me that is a total sophisticate fashionista and another part of me that is a really big kid. I love watching family guy and eating jello - laughing my ass off at Stewie.. I also sometimes think of people as cartoons and then I get the giggles.

13. My aim in life is the help people become better.. in whatever area... I can't stand mediocrity

14. I can go to a dive bar and a classy dinner and be comfortable in both. I enjoy all sorts of environments - I have lived the high life and the low life and I have found a sense of liberty in both!

15. I Love my stilettos and I can run, jog and drive fast sports cars in them! But I can totally rock sneakers and flip flops when the need arises.

16. I don't care what people think and yet I TOTALLY care what people think. Gemini. What can I say?

17. I want to be so many things.. Mother Theresa, Princess Diana, A dancing star, A successful writer, A lady of leisure travelling the world.. But I know.. I can only strive to be 3 of those things.. I will have to fake being a World renowned Princess and a dancing star.. though I can dance pretty well.. I won't ever be Michael Jackson!

(Ironically all three of those people are no longer alive.....)

Ok Ok.. enough! :)