I had been looking forward to this weekend for a while, as I have been working really hard in the past 3 months, been so busy slogging away - I needed rest. The lazy, leisurely life I once enjoyed, a distant memory. When the weekend finally came.. I am not sure if my body just crashed and burned or what happened, but I spent the entire weekend with a pounding headache, stomach aches and light headed feelings.
Today is Memorial Day - I guess.. for me.. it marks the end of the first part of 2010. There are so many exciting things on the horizon. The World Cup Soccer just 2 weeks away.. I am ever so excited to watch my beloved country be the host of the most watched event on the planet.
First... a look back.
January and February found me working at home, 3 hours a day - spending most days in the mall or at the pool. Loving that life - it got me into a great fitness routine, gave me time to write and spending time on expunging my mind from work and just enjoying and seeing life, reflecting, inflecting and just simply enjoying.
March till now has been a learning process, getting to know new people, systems and ways of working, using my experience and knowledge to make things happen. This has given me the opportunity to stretch and expand myself into so many different areas and get to a place where I have to make the balance of life happen. Making time for my ernjoyments, my friends and myself.... It hasnt been easy.. It also seems the more I exercise, the more weight I gain, the healthier I eat, the more my clothes pop! What is up with that! lol. Maybe it has something to do with errr hum.. turning 35??
Three months down the road (almost) - I am no longer brand new at work, so the pressure is not as much from here on forward except to succeed and grow. I await in anticipation some news about stability... as well as saving money and planning a few trips.. This will be the first year since I was 19... that half the year has gone by and I havent travelled or atleast have a ticket booked somewhere around the globe!!! Weird!
But all in good time!
June to December I expect to become even busier... I need to start making my financial investments into something of a future and still be able to scrounge out money to eat.. laugh and pray in some of the worlds most amazing places.... I am still burdened hard with compassion.. it never escapes me.. I want to rescue the planet - do "my part".. and save its' beautiful people.. When I was in Denver.. I started on a lonely journey to save one soul.. educate one person.. make someone smile and give someone hope.. It was a very lonely time for me.. but it gave me much fulfilment and joy.
There is something to be said about destiny.. or is it just a yearning that you are born with that which you cannot escape? Someone once said destiny is merely a philosophy that you subscribed to when you feel you cannot control your own path.. I disagree - I believe vehemently in it.. and yet, it won't JUST happen regardless... you are destined for a great thing.. If you walk a path of passion, compassion and integity.. and also hard work and focus. Because it matters not where I go, or what I do - it stands in front of me like an unconquerable ghost.. this thing.. that I am happily haunted by - reminding me that my life is to be given... not just lived for myself.
So, I have started planning toward my personal goals for the rest of this year - as I turn a milestone corner in age.. I believe this is the time for me to take the world by the horns...with more urgency - more than ever before. Let go of the trivial things that hold me back in life.....
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