January 2014

Random pics from my life...

 

 

 

 

 

 

Happy New Year everyone.

Ok, I am not going to make New Year declarations and promises of an awesome and consistently updated blog. I will say this, I “plan” to be a little more awesome this year than I was last year.. In every way.

My boss and I seemed to have ironed out our issues from last year – it was a little rocky – but I think we are finally finding a rhythm. Things are calm and I love it. I had lunch the other day with a colleague who asked me why I chose to be an Executive Assistant… well, let me put it this way, it all started with me helping celebrities shop and do errands for people. I realized, not only is my strength helping people, being organized, I also just love being in the role where I am a key part of shaping someone’s job role. I know people look at it as an underling job, but I also know that without my job the powerful people I work with wouldn’t be who they are. And I just love being a support to people. Each person has their role in life – this is mine – no doubt! I currently work for a CEO – he has a very creative mind, and does what he does with passion. That is one of the main reasons I work at this company, I love surrounding myself with people who believe so strongly in their ideas, that nothing can stop them… No matter the industry. As with all passionate people, comes a touch of crazy… But it works.

I am one of those mysterious types of people, I am SO passionate about stuff, but it does not display itself in a boisterous way – atleast not at work. People always think passion needs to be like a hurricane, a volcano or a tornado.. but mine most times is that silent rush of wind that takes your breath away. For example, a hurricane comes in and does incredible damage and leaves disorder in its wake.. a soft silent kiss from a person your heart connects with, can ignite a fire in you so strong, it sparks inspiration, it makes you do the impossible and even creates new people!! ;)) powerful is silence. J

When life hits you like a ton of bricks

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments. Well, anyone who knows me, knows, I have had many, many years alone with myself. And I am very good at being in my own company, I love it. Sometimes, I need to shake myself out of it and remind myself that I cannot do life alone.. well, atleast I shouldn’t.

Then life goes on and you meet people and start integrating your life, and being the Gemini extremist that I am, I throw myself fully into that world. I said it many times that I want to be so fully with myself and with this world. I want it all – raw, passionate, I want to feel it, experience it and just know all the sides of me and my heart that possibly exist until it stops beating.

I was convinced that when love and life finally opened doors for me, I’d be fully able to boldly walk through them like a wrecking ball (thank you Miley Cyrus for the song words which describe everything I feel at times ha ha). But when it started for me, all of a sudden, I become fearful and stressed, worried about losing it all. WHAT? Where did that come from? But I pay attention.

So, here I am wondering how do I let my heart go wander off without worrying about it like a kid you sent off to school for the first time… what if.. what if.. but you know everyday they come home and are fine, and if they are not fine, you fix it and carry on.

I know, I sound like an insane person. When I am happy I worry, when I am sad, I worry haha. Where are those chill pills they promised to create – oh wait, it’s called weedJ

Anyway, January is almost done and dusted. Lets take a stock of what I have done:

1. Amazing experiences / lots of laughter

2. I relaxed more, just getting together with myself and looking at my own heart for a minute

3. I got back to ballet - well as much as I can anyway

4. Nesting.. getting my home to be my little cave. I techno geeked my house, its super cool

5. Started planning my vacations and travel and just trying to get in shape...


On that note.. I will leave it with a random thought:

"You are where you are.. because of who you are....


 

 

 

 

 

How is this possible….

Goodbye 2013…

Where do I begin.

What a glorious, magnificent year – blessed.

Out of the ashes of what felt like a broken life, God has once again shown me what faith can do.

I bought a new car, got promoted with a huge raise. Went to Barcelona with my best friend. Got divorced, painful as that was, it was a chapter that was closing, not in pain, but in peace, had my heart touched in ways I never imagined, moved into a wonderful apartment which I finally now call home. Finally got myself a nice little band of besties… To God alone be the Glory.

So today is the first day of 2014. I have no resolutions…. I just want keep doing what I am doing, only better, with more motivation, more passion. This is the last year I will be in my 30’s OMG!!!  I am going to act like I am 18 the whole year, just for the heck of it!!!!

So here is remembering past and looking SO forward to the future!!! HOORAY

My biggest goal right now is to travel more, save the world, save money and get in shape..

 J