CATCHING UP - 3 MONTHS LATER!!

As you might have guessed, my life has become very busy.  I didn't end up going to Singapore. I was a little disappointed, because I was going to use that time to travel and see Cambodia and also to reinvent myself in the absence of the people who see me daily.

It is a hard thing trying to reinvent yourself when you are in the midst of your routine. Infact for some reason, it has the complete opposite effect!

So, today I was thinking back to how my life has changed. All the different layers I have added to it.  I find myself in a pretty good place right now.

I went from being in the church world, racing world and Hollywood world. To being alone and philanthropically navigating my way through America, to now living in the suburbs with a man, a big dog and two kids! Life sure has changed. However, I also realized, with focus, patience and persistence, you are always – in all circumstances able to still do and be all that you are passionate about. It just takes a little longer when you are a [step] mother.

To that end, we bought a Ford Mustang (shush the booing!) – 5Litre V8 and did a nice tune, added a new cool air intake and been practicing launching, clutch control and started attended car events. Circling my life back into the racing scene and the world of cars, which I LOVE!

My man and I started doing cardio workouts. I am tipping the scales these days at 122lbs. [55.2kilos] which is by far the heaviest I have been - I know for sure it is my eating, and hitting the big 40 doesn't help in trying to get rid of 10pounds.. I know, I know – no one believes you when you say your age has something to do with your ability to get in shape. I sure didn't. But now.. I .. do.!  Nevertheless. I am happy, I feel good with myself, and I just keep trying to be better.

I have quit Ballet.  I just had to come to the foregone conclusion that I can’t do it ALL at once. I tried. And I guess I could do it, but spending time with my family now takes priority.  Some weeks I work 8-5pm and some weeks I work 10 – 6pm.  And other weeks I work weird hours to accommodate – so it is really hard to drive to a ballet class!

Another thing that has been put on the back burner for the moment is my philanthropy. We did, as a family, do a few volunteer days – But it gets harder to do when there is just so much going on. A House to upkeep, kids to entertain and educate, a 14 hour a day job, a relationship to maintain etc. etc.

I have to say, I love it all. It has days or weeks when I want to just annihilate everyone in sight and go back to my simple life of movies, going shopping, doing nothing.. and being the one who is always available for every party in sight!!  

But then there are days when I just laugh and live and think there is no better place than this!

As for travel, this year I was hoping Singapore would allow me my indulgence to see the world, sadly it doesn't  look likely. But I do have my birthday trip coming up to Hawaii.  Wedding in Illinois and then see from there.    My life is now only planned 3 months in advance.

I used to live my life a quarter mile [hee hee]  at a time with travel planned up to wazoo always had something going on - but had a TON of time to myself.  But now I have school routines, dance routines that are not my own. But I love it all... I cannot be more excited about  my 40th birthday trip - Just my guy and me.. no kids. 

We need it!

I also want to try to go to South Africa this year – but, I just don’t know – we will have to see where life takes me.  Money is going elsewhere nowadays.. and travel is about 3rd on the list of things to spend on - whereas before it was NUMBER 1!!

Another thing I have had to compromise on is hanging out with my friends - I try to meet up once a month with all my girlfriends and catch up. I also meet my guy friends at the track.. So its minimal but it is there!  

We do a lot of fun things. We go shooting, try new adventures, go racing, movies and then we sometimes just sit at home with our faces in our phones and ignore each other!

All-in-all. I found my place of peace – I know NONE of you ever thought I, the wandering, restless gypsy would ever say that!

I am still her. The gypsy, I just have a bunch of people I now take with me everywhere I go!!!