Life at Full Volume. Life at Full Speed. Life in Full Color [ Volume II ]
It is now August, and "Volume II" of my crazy life, is rather overdue. I have taken a pause from writing my memoir.
Well, I was going full speed and then Hawaii happened...
June 17th, 2015 - I turned 40.. No drums rolled, no thunder, lightning or onset of arthritis.. I was the same. dang!
Not sure what I was expecting LOL> But I can tell you this, I get fatter each week.. That's no lie!
After Hawaii relaxation was done, it was again full speed ahead with my life
For some weird reason, when I lived alone I thought my life was super busy, travel, volunteering etc. Now, with kids, dog, travel, buying a house, cleaning a house, volunteering, workouts, work and just life in general - I wonder where the hell I get time to take any selfies..
(Answer: I don't!!)
So I read back over my blog which I have kept going since I moved to the USA in 2006 - wow, I can hardly believe it has been 9 years already. I feels like just yesterday, I was Fresh off the Boat in Sunny Charlotte North Carolina navigating my way through this US of A. I missed home so much in the beginning. I still miss pieces of it. Mostly family. I do not miss living in the state that South Africa seems to have gotten itself into.. but I do still feel African. Wholly. Completely.
Being in a relationship with someone from a different culture is hard. When you are surrounded by that culture, you just kind of adapt. I have. But I also feel a little sad that my own culture has lost its expression.
Being unique and seeing things a different way becomes a source of contention that just doesn't seem worth it in the end.
People don't see me as African.. maybe because I don't have a head full of African hair or beautiful black skin.
But Africa is in my blood... And some nights I just cry because I miss being known, understood. I miss listening to the Colored accents and watch Top Billing. I miss the crazy taxi drivers cutting people off and the clicks of the Xhosa tongues.
But here I am. Fully immersed in this life that I chose.
My life took many unexpected turns over the years. SO many heartaches along the way, but all turned out great in the end.
When each of our journeys begin, we have goals, dreams, talents and desires. And we set out. I started in School.. my school dreams were very simple. I wanted to finish what was needed and get to saving the world. I went to College and got married young. I had a lot of life to live and alot of world to see.
And I did it
All....
then I moved to America...
I got divorced and that just threw my whole world off balance. For the first time, I felt so lost.
then I was found again.. Healing came
And now I am in a new phase of life, trying to GPS myself to peace and stability with a family in tow.
The journey is great - but it gets harder as you get older.
Everything seems to be that way....
But here I go - I press on.. looking to the present for peace, happiness and sanity, and the future for love, stability and watch these two little girls become women. What a privilege.
xxx
Keep the dream alive my peeps.
Being in a relationship with someone from a different culture is hard. When you are surrounded by that culture, you just kind of adapt. I have. But I also feel a little sad that my own culture has lost its expression.
Being unique and seeing things a different way becomes a source of contention that just doesn't seem worth it in the end.
People don't see me as African.. maybe because I don't have a head full of African hair or beautiful black skin.
But Africa is in my blood... And some nights I just cry because I miss being known, understood. I miss listening to the Colored accents and watch Top Billing. I miss the crazy taxi drivers cutting people off and the clicks of the Xhosa tongues.
But here I am. Fully immersed in this life that I chose.
My life took many unexpected turns over the years. SO many heartaches along the way, but all turned out great in the end.
When each of our journeys begin, we have goals, dreams, talents and desires. And we set out. I started in School.. my school dreams were very simple. I wanted to finish what was needed and get to saving the world. I went to College and got married young. I had a lot of life to live and alot of world to see.
And I did it
All....
then I moved to America...
I got divorced and that just threw my whole world off balance. For the first time, I felt so lost.
then I was found again.. Healing came
And now I am in a new phase of life, trying to GPS myself to peace and stability with a family in tow.
The journey is great - but it gets harder as you get older.
Everything seems to be that way....
But here I go - I press on.. looking to the present for peace, happiness and sanity, and the future for love, stability and watch these two little girls become women. What a privilege.
xxx
Keep the dream alive my peeps.
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