Does Anyone Even Blog Anymore – 2016

I think maybe I am the last of the great bloggers to outlast the “FAD” – I have also been told I am a narcissist… so I guess it would be out of compulsion that I continue...

The last blog I wrote was just sad! About fat and waist tires.  Well, since then, I started doing Zumba.  At first I felt like the most un-coordinated person on the planet, but since I love dancing so much, I didn’t care.  I now attend every Zumba class available and my goal is to become a Zumba teacher or at the very least rock a huge, firm and sexy Zumba butt!! (No, I am not having a mid-life crisis!)

Oct 2015.  Halloween was fun, we did the dress-up neighborhood thing and took the kids around. It seems like a life time ago, now.

So last year, I read a book called: “Fearless”.  The Author talks about being fearless as an individual, in love, with yourself, your partner, this world, your passion,parenting and aging and even sickness.  Things we all face. I have to say, I haven’t yet felt the sting of “aging” except in my mid-section. :)

I do, however mentally feel like I am growing older.  I feel like my tolerance is a little geared in different directions. I feel myself not wanting to spend useless mental energy on things that I used to OBSESS about.

It is so funny when life engulfs you how you can forget so many sides of yourself.  I spent 2015 trying to fit into a family. Trying to make a family fit in with me. Juggling, trying to revive or keep passion alive in a relationship and navigating all kinds of frustrations.  Mixed in all of that, there were moments of such joy.  I started to ask myself is this what life is now? MOMENTS?  Isn’t it supposed to be the other way around? I work hard at life in order to be extraordinary. I will go to my grave kicking and screaming to be out of the clutches of mediocrity. It is just not for me.  I fought many battles in 2015 that I thought I had lost.  Lost my value system, my patience, my ability to be dignified my "give-a-shitometer".. But I woke up one day in the latter part of the year and laughed at myself. The only thing / things / persons and battles I am fighting are with myself. 

You can't mould people or the world, you can only choose the people in your circle and make your world a place you love to live in.  That's ALL - and be fearless about it all.  That was my re-revelation.  

I also realized, that I have created this life I thought I didn't recognize myself in. As the creator I have the power to change it. Not the people in it.. but the setting, my outlook, my responses. That is what peace is.

So, 2016 is here and as it always goes looking forward with newness is the order of the day.

Christmas was spent with family, both mine and Robert’s family and it was great. A little stressful, but that is just par for the course. Now I feel like the first thing I need to do is go on vacation!

Flights are pretty cheap, so I am looking forward to a weekenacation in California with some girlfriends in the upcoming weeks.

A little collage of the last part of 2015

In church last Sunday Pastor Luke spoke about: “What if” – what If you can just do things differently?  One thing that stuck with me was this, that there is NO such thing as I cannot. Perhaps I don’t want to.. but NO “cannot”.. 

Not when you have the all-powerful God as your God. Otherwise what is the point of believing in anything higher than yourself.

Sure, my current goals and ambitions are a little less extravagant than they used to be in my 20's and 30's, but no less important. Maybe I am finally growing up. 

No – that’s not it! LOL

I think I just shifted a gear into 4^th, you know, cruising speed. I have been on the Drag Strip in 2^nd and 3^rd trying to get the quickest time in the shortest amount of time possible at high revs.  Now I can downshift and take a little road trip of life…. Easy does it. And we can pick up speed and change to second on those windy dodgy corners that life provides.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE...