This weekend was nice, nothing mind-blowing, but I had some great dinners with friends, lots of art festivals going on around Denver. Watched Sex and the City (the movie) it was good fun, great weather. Really awesome.

Today I decided that I am tired of having straight hair. I decided to have a curly look for about 3 weeks and see how I like it.. Today was day 1 = no picture attached cause instead of luscious curly locks like Meg Ryan, I look a little like Dianna Ross when she wakes up in the morning! But I am determined to get it right!

Anyway, today while walking to work (as always), my mind was flooded with a lot of thoughts…

How come is it that bad experiences shape your character? What about good experiences? What do they do for you? I mean, that sounds like a raw deal to me. It seems that we accept the fact that every human being is bound to experience the same types of “bad experiences”. We are all bound to experience death, betrayal of a friend or loved one, loving someone who doesn’t love you back, failure and humiliation in some form, loneliness, longing, divorce, breakup, miscarriage…

Everyone, no matter who you are experiences that… but how fair is it that not all of us get to experience the joy of holding a baby in your arms, the comfort and wonderment of having been loved and been faithful to by one person for your entire life, success and riches for long stretches of time? How come only few of us experience SOME of those, but ALL of us experience A LOT of the aforementioned stuff?

Doesn’t that kinda suck?

I had a really bad day at work on Friday – argh it sucked.. I spent some of the weekend feeling really sorry for myself – and today I feel fine, but I had to ask myself.. was I TOO happy – that I HAD to experience negativity? Is that really how life works?

Can one be faithful to life and your own convictions and not have life betray you in some crappy form?

I wonder…..