Putting my life back into perspective.

The last 2 / 3 weeks have been a bit of a roller coaster of emotions. A lot of changes, disappointments, and a few moments of happiness, too. I feel as if I have gone through a cleansing of sorts. Walked away from friendships, walked away from secrets. Suffered some betrayal and some failure of my own.

So now that the storm, so to speak, has calmed, I feel as if I need to put my life back into perspective.

I always strived to live my life with beauty and truth. Does that mean I am always truthful with people and even with myself? No. But it pulls me toward the very essence of who I am.

My very good friend whom I have known almost my whole life – we met when I was 5 and just starting school –told me that my blog seems sad.. that, I seem sad. It must be my writing skills!! I know it started out sad. It was a journey of much reflection a lot of hurt and disappointment accompanied me to America.. But today I stand on the absolute pinnacle of contentment.

Seeing beauty is not about narrowing our vision, designating only some of its manifestations as worthy. But it is about embracing new concepts with new eyes and with a holistic truth. Suspending judgment. No one on the earth is perfect, so why do we constantly get disappointed when people make mistakes?

I want to live in absolute truth – pretty or hard – My soul’s longing calls me to it. And when the truth revealed is not pretty – my deep hunger for the truth is still satiated.

So, I am looking forward to my future – there are times when I hate Colorado and want to leave and times when I love it, I never want to wake up anywhere else.
LA still keeps calling my name, since the age of 15.. But maybe the time just isn’t quite right. I am not sure.

I have decided that without faith, hope and love – what is life then? Clinical. I never want to be a cynic or a defeatist. My previous blog created a frenzied drama and people questioning: “Princess Delise, No longer believes in love and romance”.. (I added the Princess part for dramatic effect).. Like a news headline. Well, I do. I just don’t believe in clichés – Hollywood has ruined my concept of romance and skewed the world, set us all up for disappointment. But that is a whole other story!!

Anyway, I choose Faith. I choose Hope. I choose Love.

And Yes, I am HAPPY. We all have our moments. And I certainly am no exception!

I am planning a couple of trips and I am looking forward to experiencing some newness, some exciting activities and some dam sunshine! I am SO over winter already.