Just another Sunday night

I cannot tell you how much I love the sound of the uncorking of a wine bottle.  Tonight I decided to have a really “single girl” kinda night.  I mean the whole bang shoot.

Sunday night, October 24^th 6pm.  I am wearing a black gym pants and a tanktop . Did a mini Jillian Michaels workout.  Brushed all of my hair back, tied it tightly with a band.  Eye drops in the eyes.  On goes the avocado face mask and the glasses (sexy hey?).  I am in my beautiful kitchen, in an attempt to cook with all my senses; I have Eva Cassidy’s “time after time” playing on my laptop. I have the red Zin open and a half-filled glass on the counter next to my veggies, sundried tomatoes while the onions slowly braze in the pan on the stove behind me.  I move to the tune and close my eyes.. “if you’re lost, you can look, and you will find me.. time after time.  If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting.. time after time”.. I smile.  The sun is just setting and I can see the orange heavenly painting through my window.  My turtle beside me happily splashing in his tank.

I feel so content in this moment. My pain and troubles far behind me.

I went to visit a new church this morning.  The church was located way out in North Scottsdale hidden in beautiful desert terrain between strong, tall cacti.  It was an anti climax, though,  as I did not enjoy the service.  The pastor aptly pointed out that people who attend church for their own needs, we are narcissists.  That was the most retarded word of the day for me.  I mean sure, Christianity is all about giving, sharing and being given to this world and to the higher purpose for your life. But seriously, if we didn’t have needs and go to church because we need God and need to connect then what is the point anyway?

7pm,  3 sips of wine now and my food is cooking nicely.. filling the room with aromas of fresh oregano, ground pepper, spinach and tomatoes.. the pan sizzles in delight and of promise of tastes to follow.  I refrain from turning on the TV so that I can absorb the music of Laura Pussini...  “Porque ya no desde hace tiempo de amor no me hablas”  Ok so after that beautiful song.. I gave in to the temptation…  Nutella pizza – here I come. I placed an order at the restaurant downstairs called “nourish” and I walked down stairs to fetch it..  well, I ran because I thought If I burn one more calorie, I will feel a lot less guilty ;)

 

As I got to my room for my shoes I looked out the window to see the gorgeous orange moon.  Wow! The picture from my piece of p00p camera looks terrible.. but I tried… Snapped  pic of my front lobby before heading in. I am proud to say I only had one slice of pizza J and one glass of wine.

My face is all nice and clean and soft.. time to ooze and watch my Sunday night shows – relax before another busy, hectic, exhausting week of unknowns…

I have always been prouf of the fact that I am weird!

Three Rules I have:

1. Never drunk text
2. Don't give up on your dreams no matter how many setbacks life gives you
3. Never give up on love and adventure

Pretty good rules hey?

Well, I make those my rules, simply because I believe that passion, dreams, love relationships and not making an ass of yourself is of utmost importance to your well being as a human being.

2010 has been one rough year. I haven't gone to any faraway exotic lands.. for the first time since my 18th birthday, I haven't worked this hard and stressed this much ever.. and yet..admittedly, even through all the pain of this year, I have experienced some pretty amazing blessings.  I won't recap them now.. I will leave that to my New Years Eve "had too much wine.. 2010 can suck it" blog.. I will say this.... I love California.. and  I have been there so many times this year - I feel like I am one foot away from living there with Bob (thats my dog-to-be). :)

I blogged too much.. then I stopped blogging because I got so busy with 2 jobs and lots going on and then I just got fed up and then I had nothing to say.. but what will this life be without a Delise blog?? dull very dull ;)

Have you ever been sure of your destiny, to the point where you are willing to stand before judge and jury and swear to it.. and then everything around you seems like its hell bent on proving you a perjor (thats a word, yes?). That's where I find myself, I KNOW what I want.. where I want to be.  Well, I thought I did. I was so sure.. but life keeps pulling the rug and then gving it back in little tattered covers, like its toying with my soul...

but I KNOW I win in the end.. I know how this movie ends.. I have seen it in my dreams eye and in the faith within my heart.. and this that I am living is just a re-run.. but to get to the end.. I have to go through the gore... in life unfortunately.. it's live - there is no fast forward, pause or rewind..

I don't mean to be morbid.. I just know..My soul is well. But it sure has seen better places.. but inherently I have to believe that the youth of my heart and it's faith in the God who is everything.. will keep the beauty in my body and soul pure. And I will not surrender and succomb to this world and its' mould.. yes, old I will grow.. but I won't without a fight.. and my tenacious belief that my life matters and I am here for the most important of reasons will never become a whisper in the ears of darkness....

ok .  that..s it ;0))))